Change is Okay

As you may have figured out, I had wanted to be a Fashion Design/Costume Designer in the past. I traveled to California to be in the middle of that industry and learn the trade. I had a fabulous year at school, I designed and created clothes, learned about the history of Fashion, and took multiple art classes. I was doing everything in my power to reach that goal, that dream job of mine. During that journey I made WONDERFUL friends. And some of these friends encouraged me to join the Associated Student Government. I had never done anything like that before but because it was a small school and they were going to join as well, I thought ‘why not’!

I had always enjoyed helping others and giving back and this opportunity helped me express that. One of the changes we made at Woodbury University was bringing in ceramic dishes and metal silverware to the cafeteria to eliminate the use of plastic and styrofoam. I felt like we had really made a positive impact for our environment. In addition, we held an event with teachers and board members open to questions directly from the students. We wanted to bridge the gap between the two and give the students a voice to improve the school’s campus and general education program. Being a part of something that was actually making a difference made me realize how important that was to me.

Now for my “Quarter Life Crisis” – my world had changed. I was confused about that dream I had wanted for SO long. It was no longer as clear as it used to be, I wasn't sure if that was the dream I wanted to catch. At this point, I was looking into transferring schools, moving across the country, and changing my major. I wasn't sure what I wanted anymore but knew that the Fashion Industry might not be what I needed. It was an extremely difficult and emotional time. I can remember a day, back at home in Massachusetts when I received the 5^th rejection letter from a transfer school. There was only one more school I needed to hear from and if that was a rejection too, I was going to be stuck going back to Woodbury. I freaked out, cursed in front of my parents, ran outside to sit on our porch swing, and let the rain fall on me. I sat and cried for a long time in the pouring rain. I just did not know what I wanted – there was no clear dream to chase.

Keep your head up and keep moving forward!

The lesson I learned from this was that dreams do change, and it’s okay. You may put a lot of time, money, and effort into a certain goal but if it’s not meant to be, it’s not meant to be! Learn from your actions, be proud of your devotion, and move on to the next. We grow every day and so will our goals – just never stop reaching! One may end and the other might not be there waiting but look for it anyways. Take time to adjust and make yourself happy. Do things for yourself, and while doing that, it’ll be clear what dream you need to catch next.